Don’t know about you (yet…until you share ;-) ), but I grew up knowing *much* more about what I wasn’t good at, than what I was. Not good in math? Hard time with grammar? Okay, then…let’s do some more! No one ever said, “You’re really good at x,y,z…skip the stuff you aren’t good at, and do more of what you are! If you enjoy it, even better!
To be fair, my mother did tell me my even stitches on a hem, and my even tension in my knitting and crocheting were very good. And it was fun. But I never had a fire in my belly about it. I didn’t seem to have a fire in my belly about any one thing in particular. It felt like casting about from a row boat whilst in the middle of the ocean. I kept looking out there, trying to see where I might fit. It felt hopeless, yet I kept trying. Something would capture my attention and I would think (dare to hope), This is it! …until it wasn’t. My fancy faded and I would blame myself for not being steady enough, or deep enough, or some other not-enough-ness. What am I good at? What am I to *do* here?!?
I have to wonder how we work our agreements with the forgetting program when we come into this, or any, incarnation. I can imagine that I would agree to the basic forgetting of my origins, and the false sense of separation, but somehow I have a harder time with the notion of agreeing to forgetting all that I’m good at. It just doesn’t seem much of a life to slog through not being particularly good at anything. If we’re here to experience high contrast, having no discernable talents or gifts feels rather like flat-lining. It’s like the mist. Grey-ish and fuzzy.
And this is where I recognized the tendrils of the imposition. For, who does it serve to have me out of commission? My misery had to be feeding the machine. My energy signature couldn’t have been all that sweet and in tune. I was in pain. Constant, gnawing, pain. Who does it serve? Obvious, isn’t it?
So, then I had to ask…if they’re so intent on keeping me away from what I’m good at…what might that be? And, it struck me like a thunderbolt…it isn’t what I would *do* that ‘they’ are concerned with, but who I would be in doing it.
In the world we are exiting, the 3D/4D construct, we have many tools of divination, some quite ancient. So, clearly, this is *not* a new experience. We have been given astrology (Vedic & Western), numerology, medicine wheels, tarot, I Ching, Runes, Destiny Cards, Birth day charts, twigs & stones & feathers, tea leaves, Human Design, and how many more? These are all helpful to a certain extent, IF you focused on one. But, we don’t. We dabble in many. Sometimes they agree and sometimes they don’t. Often we get more of a that’s pretty much like me sort of feeling…it’s almost, but not entirely. Because…it is from the outside in. We are looking to fit our self in the box of the system.
Moving into 5D means we bring forth our heart core wisdom. We reach within, reconnect with our remembering, and express that outward. Wonderful, no?!
And…we’re not all quite there yet. Some of us are (hello, jolly dee!), and many of us are still in the transition. Where it comes together is in focusing on peeling the layers of the not-me, shedding what isn’t yours to carry, and aiming for that centered authenticity. This is what ‘they’ don’t want. They don’t want you to be.
This, then, is the second of our primary purposes. We’ve wakened to the matrix. Check. We’re reclaiming our sovereignty and authenticity, working toward reconnection with our heart core center…our essence. And we’re expressing that more and more each day. Right where we are now. You are here.
And we’ll get there. There being the place where we blossom into knowing where our individual puzzle piece fits into the grand puzzle. Consider…if you were a kid in the car, would you be the one asking, “Are we there, yet? Are we there, yet?” Or, would you be the one looking out the window, taking it all in, absorbing it like a sponge, making the journey part of you?
Every step you’re taking, every emotion and experience along the spectrum, is adding to you for just what is needed…just like fertilizer. It can stink for a while, but then magic happens and transformation occurs. Can you feel it?
For today, breathe into being-ness. Drop all the expectations of what you should do, and who you must be. Breathe deep. Shake it off and just be.
We’ll be wrapping it up in Part III on deck :-)
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