I’ve been thinking a lot lately about where my attention/energy goes. Where have I lost myself down the rabbit hole in search of the truth, and where do I draw the distinction between me and what’s going on?
Once I woke to the game of the nwo, and that house of cards came tumbling down, I was engulfed with a need to know, and know more, and know more than that…about everything. It’s a phenomenal task to gain one’s bearings after having the rug pulled out, isn’t it?
I grew up with a news watching family. We read newspapers and weekly periodicals, watched the nightly news and the weekly in-depth reporting. I would spend chunks of Sundays reading the paper front to back. Along around my late 20s I suddenly recognized that broadcast news was nothing more than daily soap operas. I especially loved these trailers at dinner time: “Rapist on the loose! News at 11!” Wait. What? You’re asking me to wait 4+ hours in danger before you tell me how to stay safe??? Game show stuff.
And, I’m starting to feel this way again. How far down the rabbit hole is far enough? Where is the bottom? Is there a bottom? Is there enough sanity at the bottom to make it worth the trip???
So much time I’ve given to discovery, to determining where I am in relation to this mess, what can I, as one person, do…and how to address my own weaknesses to fortify my strengths and live a fuller life.
Went for a sushi dinner this evening with my mother. “Our” place closed and a new one replaced it, big screen tv and all, so we go until we find a new favorite, tv-less place. The X Games were being broadcast and it crossed my mind: I wonder how many of those folks are awake? I wonder which of us has a fuller life? I have to say these x-gamers are amazing athletes. Who knows what got them there. But I, for one, have relinquished too much fresh open air to sit for hours glued to my computer digging, listening, watching, and digging some more. Am I addicted??
Not intending to listen, my ears heard a shift from the reporting of the event to an interview where the intro voice over said something about one of the athlete’s having just come out of the closet, and what relief that might mean to his competitive performance.
And it suddenly occurred to me: Disclosure.
It’s happening all around us. It isn’t just about what’s happening in the matrix/nwo/alien agenda arena…it’s personal. Who have we been hiding from ourselves? What part(s) of us have gone unacknowledged?
New shows about all sorts of alternative family combos and lifestyles have been popular for awhile and have even branched out into the 60s and above generation with a Netflix show about 2 men leaving their 40+year marriages for each other.
Disclosure, disclosure, disclosure. Walls are breaking down all around.
Watched the first two episodes of the new X-Files to see what the buzz was about.
The first episode threw in everything including the kitchen sink…rapid fire, sort of like throwing spaghetti at the wall to see what sticks. Has ever so much been revealed within 40 minutes of primetime? With so many what? what?? what???s, surely there was something for everyone…a confirmation for the trailblazers, here, a breadcrumb trail for newbs to follow, there. And, clearly, few who aren’t already into this sort of thing would be watching.
So, how much is informed without being saturated? Where do I, we, draw the line at enough? Enough to know, to exercise sovereignty, yet enough energy to attend to a full and enriching life? My hikes are awaiting my return. My garden needs planning so I’m ready to plant…and then it needs tending. It’s a marvelous investment. Not just in living a fuller life for me, but in engaging in something affirming for the planet, too.
The news used to come on 30 minutes of local followed by 30 minutes of national/international, and done. Bed came, as it should for optimal health, before the 11:00 news, so an hour and good. I think I’m going to dial back to that. And, I’m going to take a hard look at what I need to own and disclose. And add some fun to the games. Time to rebalance.
What do you think?
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